Saturday, September 10, 2005 - Blinkies!

Well I'm going to try and add a blinkie to my signature on the BB message board...

I bought a new bed on Thursday at Ikea and a new mattress at Forty Winks today. Seeing I spend so much time in bed lately it will be nice to have a new one...man aren't beds expensive though!!!

I'm looking into going to see some kind of natural medicine person about whatever is wrong with me. I haven't completely given up with normal medicine but I'm just so frustrated. I want to get back on with my life and enjoying it again. I long to have energy *sigh*  Anyway... if you know of anyone that you can reccommend in the Brisbane area please send me their details!!!

Thursday, September 8, 2005 - BB September Kit

I think this has been the most challenging kit so far. I really struggled to not make all the bottles into ultra girly ones!  I'm happy with the results though.

In the kit is.... 5 glass bottles Gold and silver embossing powder Versamark ink cube Cord, pink sequins and gold trim Microbeads Large beads

Tuesday, August 30, 2005 - SM Scrapbooking Masters 2005 and other stuff...

Well I'm not a master but I'm happy to say I received an Honourable Mention  I received my entry back yesterday with the news. I'm so tired and sick and nervous that I don't even feel happy about it.

Rob arrives in the morning. The house is almost spotless, just a few touches needed. I just went and bought some flowers. I think I'm going to take Isaac to McDonalds for dinner and eat there, that way he can have a play in the playground and not make the house messy

So... I may not post for a while... we're going up to Bundaberg for the weekend and doing a reef cruise on Saturday. Let's hope the weather is nice!!

Say a prayer for those who've lost their lives from Hurracaine Katrina and those facing the clean up.

Friday, August 26, 2005 - Another uneventful week...

Had the white cell scan on Tuesday. Boy oh boy what a waste of a day!!!! At 8am they took 20ml of blood, at 11am they injected it back in (the white cells had been taken from my blood and made radioactive) then at 3pm they started x-raying for 50 yes 50 minutes. I nodded off but moved when I would realise that I woke up so I had to struggle and stay awake LOL

I get the results next Thursday.

Next Wednesday I'm getting a visitor for 2 weeks . A very close friend from the states is coming to visit, so I'll be showing him around this lovely city.

So I'm busily cleaning the house. I do a little bit each afternoon, it seems to be the only time of the day that I have any energy with the pain killers I'm on.

Other than that life is pretty boring.... next week it won't be though. It's nice to have something good to look forward too

Monday, August 22, 2005 - Friends...

This post is dedicated to friends. The kind of friend that doesn't judge and is always there for you. The kind of friend that even though you may get married and move away you still stay in contact and that friendship is always picked up where you left off.

Thanks Sharon for your friendship for the past 20+ years  This is your birthday present... if you're reading this act surprised LOL

Monday, August 15, 2005 - Blast from the past...

Phone rang. Never in a million years did I think it would be him after all this time. But no picking up where we left off. How do I feel? Empowered

Saturday, August 13, 2005 - Destination Unknown

My layouts are getting simpler and less cluttered. I put all kinds of stuff on this one and took it all off lol

Thursday, August 11, 2005 - August BB Kit

Well here is the August BB Kit I love how the boxes turned out. I have pictures of my favourite beaches and why they are special to me. Everything has had purpose with my scrapping and creating lately. I'm glad  no matter what happens with my health my imprint will be left for Isaac to know who I was  morbid thought I know.

I love the Urban Lily papers that we used!! So fresh funky and SUMMER

Monday, August 8, 2005 - Yay I created something...

It felt nice to get a Utee burn and be covered in popcorn smelling rubons! I wish I could do a page though. Oh well... something is better than nothing

Monday, August 8, 2005 - Another week...

My life has become very droll. Dr's appointments after dr's appointments, blood tests after blood tests... I'm wondering what it's like to work and feel healthy again!!!! I know it will all come to an end sooner or later though. The lean is toward's Crohn's Disease at the moment. EVERYTHING is crossed that it isn't. Still losing weight, although I haven't weighed myself for a couple of weeks.

Scrappingwise... I've finished my sample for August's BB Kit. It's SO cute!! Now for September

I got my contributors copy of Scrapbook Creations today. It looks wider... I don't know for sure as I haven't measured it against the last one but I'm sure it is. (maybe my eyes have got "fish eye envy" lol) There's some wonderful work in there to feast your eyes on! Gorgeous cover by Erica Glover too.

So, not much install for me this week except another two dr's appointments, maybe more tests, maybe some scrapping/btp'ing/or fiddling of some kind LOL

Thursday, August 4, 2005 - Spunky Dr VS Horrible Glycoprep

Why is it that the better looking the dr the more horrible a proceedure they have to perform on you?  Oh well.. I lived through it just LOL It will be a few days before I'm back to just feeling "horrid" though I think.

I have to go back next Thursday for the biopsy results.

On the creating front I'm looking forward to next weekend... Isaac free and I desprately want to create!!!!!

Thanks for the well wishes too :D It means a lot to me :D :D :D

Friday, July 22, 2005 - ATC Card

Well I've done my ATC's for a swap. Now to post them  Nothing flash but I feel so drained of creativity at the moment!! Oh well... things can ONLY get BETTER  (unless the light at the end of the tunnel is a train)

Tuesday, July 19, 2005 - New BB Kits!

This is the all exciting new BB Kit! It's being offered on a 3 and 6 month subscription basis. This first one is limited. I think it's really cute but as I made it I guess I'm biased!!  If you want something different, something affordable, something funky, something nice in your letterbox that's regular but not a bill, something that will take you out of your usual scrapping space sign up! If you want to sign up goto www.bluebazaar.com.au or email sales@bluebazaar.com.au if you have any questions.

Aren't the new Urban Lily papers gorgeous!!!

Monday, July 18, 2005 - Ho Hum

Well it's been a while since I've posted... Thursday was burnout day for me.  Wednesday I actually felt ok - it was an odd feeling after being sick for 7 weeks. Thursday I felt so emotionally drained by it all because I got the niggling pain back. I was back to the hospital again yesterday and today my doctor.

Right now I can't remember what it felt like to be well. My body is so tired of fighting whatever bug it has that it's exhausted.

The positives? I've lost 15kg now. I guess it's not the best way to lose weight but when I try it doesn't come off, at least this way it's easy. My stomach has shrunk to the extent that if I eat even a half of what I used to eat in a sitting I feel ill. (like now) Oh well... it's my positive

Wednesday, July 13, 2005 - Another thought to ponder...

Do the right thing. It will gratify some people and astonish the rest.

Mark Twain
American humorist, writer and lecturer. 1835-1910

and liberate your soul

Wednesday, July 13, 2005 - Something to ponder...

A carrot, an egg and a cup of coffee. You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again.A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose. Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil, without saying a word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.

Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me, what do you see?" "Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied. Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg. Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. 

The daughter then asked, "What does it mean, mother?" Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.

"Which are you?" she asked her daughter "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?" Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength? Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a break-up, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart? Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavour. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean? May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

Friday, July 8, 2005 - I am as fast as a snail!

And feel like one too LOL

I keep hoarding things around me so that I don't have to get up to do anything. It's been so long (well long for me is 5 years) since I've had any kind of surgery that I forgot how much it all hurt afterwards.

My mum and I were comparing abdo surgeries this morning... she's had 9 and I've had 6. She pointed out though that she'd only had 3 (which had produced 3 babies) when she was my age. I can't complain I guess... I haven't been in hospital for 5 glorious years so 2 days wasn't too bad

I'm going to sort my printed photos in the morning, that's if I ever get to bed tonight... I ate a bag of Starburst Babies and I'm on a sugar/food colouring high LOL

Thursday, July 7, 2005 - hey honey I'm home....

Man do I need lots of drugs!!! They took out my apendix and also some scar tissue adhesions that were on the other side. Apendix itself had scaring so they figured I had had apendicitus at some stage.

It amuses me that in hospital they say stay and rest... being woken up hourly, being given pain relief every 2 hours (so effectively getting about an hour of sleep in every 3) is not rest!!! I'm glad to be home  Even if I do feel like I'm impailed on a fence through my tummy

Wednesday, July 6, 2005 - Off to hospital....

Lots of gorey details when I'm back

Tuesday, July 5, 2005 - Tiresome days...

I've hit the wall. Five weeks of being on these pain killers, lack of sleep and continuous pain have caught up with me. Yesterday I felt so down about it all I just cried and cried, then slept for 3/4 of the day!!

The hospital rang and I'm definately going in for surgery tomorrow. They have a big case first so she told me not to come up too early so I can take Isaac... she's such a lovely case manager!! She suggested that I go home with Melanie (my sister) so just in case something happens I'm not alone. So hopefully this time tomorrow it will be all over... well nearly

My main concern is that they'll find something horrible or not find anything at all. I think I'd probably cope better with the former than the latter!!!

Well I better go and do some washing and pack my bag (and Isaac's) for the next few days.

Everyone cross your fingures that they find the source of the pain!!!! (please )